can barely see

i shouldnt... i cant... please no... i dont want to do it anymore... only for happiness. but i keep failing. it feels like im just wondering around always searching for what? i dont know... a neon sign flashing to tell me i found it? doesnt it suck. i always do this, you would think i learned... everyones different... maybe i dont take things so seriously afraid if i do that i'll get too attached and then it'll be ripped away from me... i learned to detach myself long before... it comes natural...? oh dammit its too late.mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake someone shoot me before i make any more... how amazing it is how much words can truly hurt someone even if just read... ive no idea what im thinking i can barely see the screen as it is through the... no sleep tonight. no respect held anymore for me... idk im flailing words around which can be dangerous... its true... im not a good person...i try to be but it just bites me back... idk how to react sometimes or what to say or do... oh man ignore me im just a stupid girl full of emotions here, not a surprise there.

remember

the song by justin nozuka: save him